2014 started off rough.
In January, I came down with a sinus infection and cold. A few days later, I was told I had strep throat and was given the standard antibiotic. A day after taking the antibiotic, I couldn't lift my head off the pillow without feeling nauseas, light-headed, and dizzy. I was on bed rest for 24 hours and then slowly started to feel normal again. I called my doctor and she said that it was probably a reaction to the antibiotic and that she would prescribe me another. The next day, I was at a Open House for a preschool and again, started to feel dizzy and nauseas, but this time my vision started to become blurry as well and I developed a migraine by noon. This went on for 2 weeks.
Thankfully, my neighbors took turns watching Sawyer or bringing me groceries. I even had a sweet friend bring me chicken soup and magazines one day. I was thankful, but also getting increasingly frustrated. Every morning, I would get dizzy and by noon I would have a migraine. It was debilitating. I have never been that sick and couldn't watch Sawyer. I was in and out of doctor appointments and even the ER.
I had an MRI and had blood work done, but no one could figure it out until I went to one neurologist, who said that I had vertigo. Vertigo doesn't have a "cure", so they gave me medications to help with my symptoms and said that it was brought on by lack of sleep and stress. Basically being a Mom. She told me to realize what my stress triggers are and to get 8+ hours of sleep a night because too much stress can bring on "spells" and these "spells" can last up to two weeks. Great!
After that calmed down, I realized my vision had become blurry in one my eyes and long story short, I ended up getting glasses. January, wore me out. Hello 2014! Its sure nice to meet ya!
At the end of February, Sawyer started having a sleep regression. One week it was due to teething and last night, I have no idea what happened. He was down at 7 and back up from 9:30-11:30.
This all to say that when lent came around, I was excited. I needed this retreat and this chance to reflect. I got off Facebook and am using this time to work on my relationships. To focus on people and to open our home more often to friends. To have people over and get to know them better instead of strolling through a site. To be more in the here and now and to journal and reflect instead of having those "I wish I had more time to's" pile up.
So far, it feels really good. Really good. I'm more present with Sawyer and more aware. I'm also finding more time to be in the word and complete my bible study, which hasn't happened since December. I'm connecting with friends and trying to think of ways to love those around me. To figure out ways in which I can better serve them.
Even though its been a week, I'm realizing how much I needed this grace period. I needed this time to relax, refuel and refocus. It's making me feel more whole and also more excited and eager for what 2014 has in store.