Its hard to believe that this little guy is one month old today. In a lot of ways this month has seemed to drag on as I heal, adjust to life as a mother of two, and figure out how to function on very little sleep.
The things I've learned this last month is that community is everything. This last year, I've really committed to community. I've joined Moms groups and tried to love those in them by bringing over meals and getting together with friends for playdates. Looking back on this last month, I'm so glad that I invested in these relationships because they have helped me so much these last few weeks. A lot of this month, I've felt lost, frustrated, and overwhelmed and its been so encouraging to receive sweet texts from others that have done this before me. These girls have also brought over meals and sent emails asking if they can watch Sawyer sometime, so I can take a nap or get things done around the house. These little acts of kindness have meant so much to me and have helped me tremendously as I navigate these new waters and try to establish a new normal.
I've also learned that I don't have it all figured out and I don't know when I will. I went to my Bible Study for the first time in a month and had to leave the big group early to feed Rhett and then leave 45 minutes early to make sure that Sawyer got a nap in before his preschool. I've also tried to have some girlfriend time because I've been craving it. But an hour and a half in, I had to ask everyone if it was okay if we wrapped things up because I knew that I'd have to be up in a few hours with Rhett and sleep is more precious than gold right now. Its a juggling act for sure, but I'm trying. I might be failing, but at least I'm trying and I'm thankful my friends are gracious enough to give me grace as I figure it all out.
In terms of Rhett, he's perfect. Don't get me wrong, he's definitely opinionated and really loves his meals more than any baby I know, but he's also incredibly sweet. He's a cuddler and loves to just scrunch up in a ball on your shoulder. He is also more vocal about his likes and dislikes-way more than Sawyer ever was-like he thinks stoplights and stop signs are for the birds and will start to whimper whenever we have to stop for just a moment. Because of this, I'm excited to watch him grow and learn more about this particular little guy as the months go on.
One thing I'm really grateful for this month is Sawyer. He's been such a love bug when it comes to Rhett. He wakes up every morning asking to see the baby and whenever we meet someone he says, "Look at the baby! Look at the baby!" I also love that he wants to include the baby in everything we do. I'll tell him that we are going to the park and he says, "Baby wants to come too" and I assure him that the baby will come wherever we go.
So that's our month! It's been hard, challenging, rewarding, beautiful, amazing, and difficult, but it's mainly just been full of love as we welcome this little one into our chaos. We love you, Brenton Rhett and thank you again for being so sweet and patient as we figure this all out.